07.24.10

Rain falls intermittently
Calling out to the water element in me
Beckoning my consciousness to the abandon
Of the simple love for rain

Your smile

Like a breath of fresh air
Like the rays of the early morning sun
It warms my heart.

*sigh*

I have probably caused many a person’s heartbreak for here I am again having my heart broken. I’ve often told myself that one only has to give another person a right to have his heart broken. I suppose I give that right way too liberally that I always end up having to cry over it or rue about how things should and shouldn’t have been.



It is not surprising, actually, that I end up this way. People who know me will not find anything new in my present predicament. I’ve been this way for over two decades now. I may have different words for it then or different way of articulating it but it’s basically the same thing. To give credit to Bono’s “I still haven’t found what I’m looking for”, here I am experiencing it still.



Nobody knows what will happen next. No one can tell when I am finally found or when I shall finally find what it is I am looking for. The waiting may take years, it may even take a lifetime. I should have hope and the patience for the wait. I keep telling myself it’s gonna come. Who am I fooling here? Maybe you can tell.