a beginning of something wonderful

i've planned on posting an entry for the last month yet until now i still haven't gotten around to doing it. my recent posts were created months ago and i had to repost them since i couldn't access my old account. i wonder what happened there.

going back to that title, i think i heard that from a song. i'm not sure what band it is but i'm quite certain it's a local band. one that's got the airwaves humming for weeks then suddenly like any other band's song, the tune just got stuck in the listener's head and remained there. not as much gigs nor guestings for the band either. it's just a song that was loved for a moment, liked by most then ignored after everyone else already knows its lyrics and sings/hums along with it. another song, a more catchy one just came along and off we sing with it.

"endings are just beginnings. we just don't know it at the time." true. maybe that's why i'm writing this piece towards the end of the year. because i know that the new year will be a beginning of something wonderful. most of us are uncertain of the future. and i am one of those that would rather expect an "average" future than a rosy one. i guess i'm still the person who sees the hole instead of the doughnut. to put it rather lightly.

yet, why the title, you ask... i don't know the answer either. for want of a better title? to make it more appealing/interesting? or maybe to motivate myself to thinking that. but truth be told that everytime i write in my status today is the best day of the year, just anything that can possibly go awry, just goes awry. how swell! maybe this time that something wonderful is going to stick by. maybe this time it's really going to be the start of somthing wonderful.

they say "positive expectations", "think happy thoughts", and all that positive blah really do good to one's self-esteem and well-being. maybe so. it's just that i'm still a little skeptical about it. i can enumerate reasons for that skepticism but you'd be bored to death if i do so. i don't want the death of a few curious souls that ventured to read this piece on my conscience (hey, i still got one).

on second thought, wouldn't a different title have been more fitting for this piece? my mind, like my heart is wandering. let them be for now. soon i'll find the inspiration, the mood, whatever excuse i can get to write a better entry. no apology offered.